day 9 of blogging

I like to think I have it all together. Rarely is that the case. Everyday is a different adventure, holding different obstacles and challenges. And to be honest, I never take them very well. I huge problem for me is stress. I freak out, cry, freak out some more, maybe cry again, get angry, then feel bad for getting angry, and then calm down... What I need to do from the start is calm down. Easier said than done.

My relationship with God has been a struggling one this semester. I wish I knew why. I consider myself to be a very happy person: I am so blessed to have the friends and family that I have. They are so supportive and are there whenever I need ANYTHING. I can't tell you how much they mean to me. Then, if everything is so great, why do I feel unhappy sometimes? I know we all have those "Woe is Me" days, but I think I have farrr too many. My goal: stop asking myself, "What do I need today?". And start asking, "What can I DO for someone else today?". I pray that my attitude changes... and that I realize its not about me. I need to take a step back and focus on what is important. Most days, I feel like school, appointments, tests, friends, family, hobbies, and other activities are the most important thing. But my prayer is that I realize my relationship with God is most important. When that is right, everything else will fall into place. Whoever is reading this, pray that I let go of all the things I cling onto so tightly.

And if you have anything you need me to pray for, let me know :)